I lost a kid. My sweetest, baseball playing, hockey playing kid. The one that wanted to go places with me all the time. Sunsets, errands, whatever. She got great grades. Excelled at sports. Graduated from a very rigorous, all girls, college prep highschool. She very much wanted to go to college.
The feeling of being suicidal might be related to the fact that these persons are in the process of on a most fundamental level change who they are. The one gender dies and the other is born. It is crazy. We spend our whole life building up a personality and an inner idea of what it is like to be me. We must make such an image in the mind, because we need to know who we are in the map we made of the world. There needs to be a representation of me in that map too and now I find myself not being happy with that representation. My self image does not match my physical reality. There is a mismatch. So what can I do? I can update my simulation, my inner world or I can try and have the outside world act as if I am who I want to be. That is an impossible task. So the point here is, that we need to GO INSIDE, to make the adjustments and there is nothing wrong with that. You have lost your creativity and got entangled in the world of others, but there was a time, when your conscious awareness was just beginning to realise itself. This is when you were to encounter the world and learn. You learn about what it is like to have a body. You try out stuff and learn what makes you happy and what makes you sad. There is a point however, where the mind tries to think through the mind of the other, when the milk must come and we need to know what mother needs in order to give it to us. These kind of things teach us to become aware of both our self and the other, mother. Now there is also a natural point, where the self finds, that it is no longer in need of such a strong symbiosis. This is where our first identity emerges, that is separate from others. Nevertheless, here the crux is, that we might either find our own light, or be lost in the light of others. In our model however, the focus of our attention must be with the representation of self and not other. Otherwise you develop towards a mask. You will just be pretending and you become what you imitate. Later in life, say at puberty, when the physical identity is forcing you to participate in the dance of life, you may feel a certain resistance. You want to be free. This is when the pseudocult of trans can begin to captivate you and tell you, that you can be whoever you want, whatever gender and sex you want to be. It denies the physical and goes straight for the self image, the representation of yourself in the representation you have of the world. That is when you want to run away from home, but actually you must internally recognise your inner light and follow that. This light is the true being, consciousness and it is not bound to worldly matters like sex and gender. This inner being must recognise that it is it's body in the world. Now, we live in times where people convince eachother that everything is possible. Medical science pretends to be able to make a boy out of a girl and vice versa. But we know that this is not true. It is just superficial cosmetics, pretend play. Play pretend when you are 3 or 4, dress like a girl or a boy and play with the roles. Not to get stuck in one obsession, but to gain insight in who you are in the world. Learn to live with your natural body. Do not castrate yourself, but be a woman or a man and learn what it means to be so. Yes, this is not easy and it is not so for many many men and women, but it is the true game we are playing and with your trans-pseudocult, you place yourself outside of this shared reality. That may feel like a revolution, but is it truely honest? Is your inner representation not an abstract, subjective interpretation of a dream? It is braver to be the man or woman that you are and be open to learn what that means, than to flee into the fairytales of a temporary hype. I hope you find yourself in Me, in love, in the essence of reality and not the vague promises of a confused generation. (like we all were in some way or the other!) Live a natural life. Struggle is the essence. It is who we are, always trying to jump into the next light.
Please try everything to find out where she is and bring her back. I continued to keep a watch on my Trans ex-H for 16 years. There was always the very slim chance that he might regret and I even send him a link to Walt Heyer's Sexchangeregret.com one Christmas. No answer.
And when the law allows it prosecute that Pied Piper who visited the school. There will be hundreds of parents with you. And then prosecute Prof Judith Butler, the author of "Gender Trouble" - a book on "Queer Theory". It is mind-bendingly boring and totally destructive of logical thought. It should have been laughed out of the faculty at Stanford.
I have no words. I tried to come up with something to alleviate a bit your pain, and I can't. Sorry, my brain stops functioning after reading stuff like this. I'll just send you a big hug and leave it at that. God help us all.
So so sad for you and your family. My 'Pollyanna' hope for you is that she 'wakes up'. Jut a little time away from the 'nest' - her HOME - may bring her around. But I am fully aware that there is so much in this cult that is working against you and her. I truly thank you for sharing this. So many people have no idea how insidious and pervasive this has become. Painful. Sick. But, I still hold out hope for you.
I'm just so sorry you are going through all this. It's been a daily horror for us for over a year. I just sit here typing and crying. I pray that all of our kids come to their senses soon.
Oh this is so gut-wrenching. It really makes me appreciate the fact that I still have frequent contact ------ mainly via WhatsApp and sometimes by phone -- with my ROGD 19-year-old, who is currently on the verge / in limbo about medicalising. I pray for your daughter and your family.
I so feel your pain. This is our story too. Long, loving embraces with each visit and then one day he was suddenly gone. How many of us are there? I shudder to think.
This is horrific the fact that this person was at the talking to the girls without your knowledge is terrible i have no children but i have nieces and nephews 2 are grown up and have avoided this madness but 3 more are young and i hope they dont fall under any of this horrific influence.
The feeling of being suicidal might be related to the fact that these persons are in the process of on a most fundamental level change who they are. The one gender dies and the other is born. It is crazy. We spend our whole life building up a personality and an inner idea of what it is like to be me. We must make such an image in the mind, because we need to know who we are in the map we made of the world. There needs to be a representation of me in that map too and now I find myself not being happy with that representation. My self image does not match my physical reality. There is a mismatch. So what can I do? I can update my simulation, my inner world or I can try and have the outside world act as if I am who I want to be. That is an impossible task. So the point here is, that we need to GO INSIDE, to make the adjustments and there is nothing wrong with that. You have lost your creativity and got entangled in the world of others, but there was a time, when your conscious awareness was just beginning to realise itself. This is when you were to encounter the world and learn. You learn about what it is like to have a body. You try out stuff and learn what makes you happy and what makes you sad. There is a point however, where the mind tries to think through the mind of the other, when the milk must come and we need to know what mother needs in order to give it to us. These kind of things teach us to become aware of both our self and the other, mother. Now there is also a natural point, where the self finds, that it is no longer in need of such a strong symbiosis. This is where our first identity emerges, that is separate from others. Nevertheless, here the crux is, that we might either find our own light, or be lost in the light of others. In our model however, the focus of our attention must be with the representation of self and not other. Otherwise you develop towards a mask. You will just be pretending and you become what you imitate. Later in life, say at puberty, when the physical identity is forcing you to participate in the dance of life, you may feel a certain resistance. You want to be free. This is when the pseudocult of trans can begin to captivate you and tell you, that you can be whoever you want, whatever gender and sex you want to be. It denies the physical and goes straight for the self image, the representation of yourself in the representation you have of the world. That is when you want to run away from home, but actually you must internally recognise your inner light and follow that. This light is the true being, consciousness and it is not bound to worldly matters like sex and gender. This inner being must recognise that it is it's body in the world. Now, we live in times where people convince eachother that everything is possible. Medical science pretends to be able to make a boy out of a girl and vice versa. But we know that this is not true. It is just superficial cosmetics, pretend play. Play pretend when you are 3 or 4, dress like a girl or a boy and play with the roles. Not to get stuck in one obsession, but to gain insight in who you are in the world. Learn to live with your natural body. Do not castrate yourself, but be a woman or a man and learn what it means to be so. Yes, this is not easy and it is not so for many many men and women, but it is the true game we are playing and with your trans-pseudocult, you place yourself outside of this shared reality. That may feel like a revolution, but is it truely honest? Is your inner representation not an abstract, subjective interpretation of a dream? It is braver to be the man or woman that you are and be open to learn what that means, than to flee into the fairytales of a temporary hype. I hope you find yourself in Me, in love, in the essence of reality and not the vague promises of a confused generation. (like we all were in some way or the other!) Live a natural life. Struggle is the essence. It is who we are, always trying to jump into the next light.
Please try everything to find out where she is and bring her back. I continued to keep a watch on my Trans ex-H for 16 years. There was always the very slim chance that he might regret and I even send him a link to Walt Heyer's Sexchangeregret.com one Christmas. No answer.
And when the law allows it prosecute that Pied Piper who visited the school. There will be hundreds of parents with you. And then prosecute Prof Judith Butler, the author of "Gender Trouble" - a book on "Queer Theory". It is mind-bendingly boring and totally destructive of logical thought. It should have been laughed out of the faculty at Stanford.
I should have put this in the story:
The name of the kid who visited the school and our child. She is from Boston, MA. Her name is EKaterina Ivanenko.
Also, the school, Buffalo Seminary, in Buffalo NY has a class called "Queer Theory."
I didn't even look up what that meant because our child showed no signs of being gender confused.
I have no words. I tried to come up with something to alleviate a bit your pain, and I can't. Sorry, my brain stops functioning after reading stuff like this. I'll just send you a big hug and leave it at that. God help us all.
I am so sorry. This is absolutely heartbreaking 💔
i hope you find her.
So so sad for you and your family. My 'Pollyanna' hope for you is that she 'wakes up'. Jut a little time away from the 'nest' - her HOME - may bring her around. But I am fully aware that there is so much in this cult that is working against you and her. I truly thank you for sharing this. So many people have no idea how insidious and pervasive this has become. Painful. Sick. But, I still hold out hope for you.
This is heartbreaking beyond words. I hope she comes home. Much love to you and your wife.
I'm so sorry. I barely have words. My heart is with you though, for whatever that's worth.
I am so very sorry. I hope she comes home.
I'm just so sorry you are going through all this. It's been a daily horror for us for over a year. I just sit here typing and crying. I pray that all of our kids come to their senses soon.
Oh this is so gut-wrenching. It really makes me appreciate the fact that I still have frequent contact ------ mainly via WhatsApp and sometimes by phone -- with my ROGD 19-year-old, who is currently on the verge / in limbo about medicalising. I pray for your daughter and your family.
I so feel your pain. This is our story too. Long, loving embraces with each visit and then one day he was suddenly gone. How many of us are there? I shudder to think.
I am crying for you & your family.
This is horrific the fact that this person was at the talking to the girls without your knowledge is terrible i have no children but i have nieces and nephews 2 are grown up and have avoided this madness but 3 more are young and i hope they dont fall under any of this horrific influence.
Heartbreaking. I am so sorry. Praying for you, your daughter, and your family.